Rollercoaster...

Yes, a rollercoaster, one that is exciting to the point where you bite off all your finger nails in anticipation and also one that is sickening...so many ups and downs and side to sides once you're off the ride you're not sure where your stomach landed.

That's how my life is going right now. One gigantic rollercoaster. I'm not enjoying it.

Sometimes I just wish God would say...this is where you need to be at this point in your life, this is how things should look. Then I can make the necessary decisions to match what the picture is supposed to look like, like the old color by numbers that I did when I was little. Unfortunately, I remember not really following the numbers and wanting it to look my way instead of what the instructions called for. I still wish for some direction....especially when you love someone soooo very much and they desire their lifes picture to be something different then your own. How do you resolve this?!?!?

Yes, I've been praying and so has he and so has a few other people, but how do you know which way to go???

Just sad....just really really sad.....